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Weird Days and Nights

Wednesday, February 14, 2007 @ 11:10 AM

The snow melted. Actually, by the next morning it barely looked as though it had snowed much at all! There was complete chaos for twenty-four hours and then it was all gone again. Mammy spent the night at work cos she couldn't get home. Daddy had to abandon the car on his way home from work and walked the rest of the way. Ray's car got stuck so Jem and I ended up pushing it most of the way up the hill - yes, up hill! It snowed all day and by the time lunchtime hit the snow was even taller than Sweepie! It was lots of fun. We spent the night playing Halo on the big TV downstairs. But, like I say, by the following morning the chaos was over, Mammy got home and everything went back to normal. A very weird day I have to say.

I then had another weird day - night. Tuesday was Ray's uncle's birthday so we all went down for a meal for him. The meal was very yummy and we all ate 'til we burst. Then the women retired to the living room to look at wedding dresses and venues (Ray's sister is getting married next year) - eek, not my thing at all so I just watched "The Simpsons" on TV. After a while I ended up with the kids sat around me and then played catch with a new baseball glove. Everyone ended up leaving at about 9 and once they were gone Ray's aunt announced that someone within the family had said on a website that she was bisexual. At first I didn't understand what was wrong but it soon became clear that she was shocked that such a "big thing" was posted online before it being announced to the family. After much conversation, I felt I had to admit that I am bisexual. This shocked her all over again. And when Ray joined in as well she nearly fainted. I've never had to "come out" about my sexuality before. At home we're all very open and I'm always asking Daddy if he thinks a guy is cute or not. It's just the way I was raised. When I started dating Ray I did the same to him - and we now argue over who's going to have Justin Timberlake (me, obviously). It was decided it must be a generation/age thing and that although Ray and I felt that sexuality was just a thing that wasn't even worth discussing, Ray's anut and uncle still saw it as a thing that needed to be clarified. I couldn't honestly say I was one way or the other; it really depends on my mood, who I have a crush on, etc. I asked them both if they'd ever even entertained the thought of being with the same sex - they both honestly said no. I was pretty stunned actually. When I told them they were the only people I knew who were 100% straight, who had never had any kind of feelings for the same sex, they seemed surprised. But it was the truth. The only person I know who says they're totally straight is my younger sister but whether or not that means she's never even thought of it I can't say. It was such a weird night. Whether or not there'll be repurcussions from this conversation I'm not sure. I naively thought that no one really gave a crap who you fancied/dated anymore.

Anyway, it's Valentines Day today. This is my first Valentines Day spent with a guy! I've bought Ray two presents just cos I love spoiling him and I actually have some funds to do so. He has "Red Dwarf" series 2 cos I'm slowly building up the collection for him cos he is a little obsessed with the show. And I've bought him some small silver/white earings cos he's been looking for some nice ones for a while now - I really didn't like the huge David Beckham-esque ones he picked last time. I don't think we have any plans for tonight. VD has never really been a big thing for me. Isn't it supposed to be when you ask out a guy/girl you like? Not about people who are already in relationships? I've just used it as an excuse to spoil Ray this year. So if you're brave and ask someone out today: well done and good luck! If you're already in a relationship: happy spoiling and being spoilt!

Labels: family, ray, sexuality, snow, valentines day

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